We all lie to ourselves daily as we struggle to make sense of our lives.
But there are some moments when we can lie no longer and that is never more true than when the Magistrate or Jury announce your guilt and you are told that the most precious thing – your freedom – is being taken away. In that moment life stands still.
The words and scenes that follow are often a blur as you try to come to terms with how your life has just changed forever. The date will never be forgotten and your life will never be the same again.
Whatever you own or have achieved in the world no longer matters, all that faces you is the nightmare that lies ahead.
Even more so for our children in the UK who we keep subjecting to the dangerous horror that is a Young Offender Institution. But more of that another time.
Whether it is for weeks or life, and however tough you appear and think you are ready for prison, nothing prepares you for that time you are told your future.
A moment when you are totally alone.
As always in life, the real question is what next? How do you react? How can you draw the strength needed to achieve some sort of happiness in what lies ahead. I like the following quote:
“We are all alone, born alone, die alone, and—in spite of True Romance magazines—we shall all someday look back on our lives and see that, in spite of our company, we were alone the whole way. I do not say lonely—at least, not all the time—but essentially, and finally, alone. This is what makes your self-respect so important, and I don’t see how you can respect yourself if you must look in the hearts and minds of others for your happiness.”
― Hunter S. Thompson, The Proud Highway: Saga of a Desperate Southern Gentleman, 1955-196